I didn’t start out with a plan to pick out a word.
I started out with a plan to reinvent the wheel and start a bullet journal because pinterest. The first problem I ran into was that I am not Kara but want my journal to look like I am. My solution was to create a rough draft notebook where I would sketch out all the checklists and calendars and practice pretty headers and task lists and when I got everything the way I liked it – I would recreate it over to my real bullet journal with fingers crossed that I didn’t mess any of it up.
Because I have time for that.
After day 2 of trying to get it just so, I realized that I was spending way too much time trying to create the perfect bullet journal and not enough time actually living my less than perfect life so I ordered myself a datebook and went back to different notebooks and scraps of paper everywhere. It’s not the tidiest of systems, but at least I’m not worrying that my to-do list handwriting it isn’t pretty enough.
Which led me to my next problem: I wanted a bullet journal because I wanted the grown up sticker chart of a habit tracker checklist for my resolutions which included such things as: I’m going to get up early and go to bed on time and exercise and eat more vegetables and less sugar and clean everything and craft every day and take lots of pictures and read two books a week and hand write a letter once a week and go to Mass each Sunday and practice yoga and never, ever, ever raise my voice.
(The fact that my brain thinks that a complete life overhaul starting January 1 is completely doable may contribute to my depression and anxiety issues.)
So how did I get from resolutions and bullet journals to setting a word?
Rita. I blame Rita.
She mentioned Susannah Conway’s 5-day online class to pick a word so I went over to check it out. I’ve never picked a word intention before because I’ve always felt they were silly and twee and a bit woo-woo. And reading a few of Susannah’s thoughts on the matter didn’t change my mind that much on that front, but during one of the exercises something became very clear to me.
All my checklists and goals and plans for the year are an attempt for me to fulfill a need. And I made that need my word for the year.
So this year instead of making multiple resolutions that I’ll never keep, I set an intention. And I’m excited about it. (Thanks, Rita.) And instead of worrying about getting everything done so I can feel calm, I’m going to focus on feeling that way no matter what is going on around me. I want to cultivate it in my home and in my life. I still want to make myself a sticker chart (because I’m still basically a seven year old girl) but more than anything, I want to create a calmer heart and home.
On an unrelated side note:
We got snow.
And I love it.